Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Stepping Out on Faith

About two weeks ago I quit my job. Yes, you read correctly. I quit my job. A couple of months ago I wrote about the toxicity in my work place and the kind of people I was surrounded by on a daily basis. As you can see, I could not take it any longer. I was becoming someone that I wasn't comfortable with and felt my life slipping away and I wasn't enjoying it much anymore. So as hard as the decision was to leave the little sense of stability I had, I was forced to let it go due to situations beyond my control. In a way, I feel as though I was told by God to let my job go months ago but I ignored Him and stayed in a horrible work environment. As a result, I truly believe that God made my work situation so bad that I was forced to take drastic actions to change where I was working and the direction of my life. I feel like God had his foot on my back and pushed me out of the door and into my car and I obliged.
Since my departure from my job, I have felt a restoration occurring in my life. I now have time to speak with my friends, I am now back at the gym regularly and my relationship with God is strengthening. Unfortunately, due to my job many areas of my life began to suffer. Most of the people who truly know me are aware that I am a very introspective person and I work hard to cultivate the life I need and that makes me happy. I work for what I want and I don't believe that anyone can stop me from getting all of the goodness I deserve in life. For some reason, while I was at that job, it seemed like the flow of good energy stopped coming forward to me. I was grumpy, short tempered and never seemed to have enough time to care for myself or for the people I care about the most in my life: my close friends and family. Miraculously, since I have left that job there is a new energy surrounding me. Opportunities are springing up out of nowhere and I am seeing good things flow again and it feels great. Its amazing how one small change can make such a huge difference.
I know that many people are not in the position to quit their jobs like I did but this situation can apply to anything. If someone is in a "friendship" or "relationship" that doesn't make them happy, they can choose to change it. Nothing has to remain the same. I have changed situations many times in my life because I needed to be healthier. I like the feeling of freedom. I didn't like my job situation and the people who were around me. They were mean and gossipy. That's not what my spirit wants me to be and I knew it. When God first gave me the sign that I needed to leave that job, I resisted it because of fear. That bothers me because I have never been a fearful person but looking back I know that's what it was that I was feeling. Finally, He gave me other signs and I literally heard a voice telling me that I needed to step out on faith so eventually that's what I did. It was not an easy decision to make. I have been working since the age of 15 and I like making money. With this is mind, I knew I had to trust my higher power and believe that He would provide for me and He has been doing just that and then some.
I am happier now and every day I feel more connected with my source. I look forward to more doors being opened for me and more opportunities coming my way. I feel the world opening up for me in a new way and I am beyond blessed.